I’ve got a bit of an issue with ‘stuff’.
I like having stuff.
Then I feel overcrowded and want it out.
I go through phases of collecting things, then feel the need to purge and get them all out.
It happens with everything.
I used to buy so many magazines you wouldn’t believe. When I had no room to keep them, I’d keep a folder of the front covers. One day, I recycled them all.
I went through a phase of buying loads of (fairly cheap) clothes, then had a day where I needed to sort through everything and keep only the things that were flattering and that I loved.
I bought so much makeup and so many toiletries there’s no way one person could use it all and I was running out of space to store it. Then I suddenly couldn’t bear how many products were crowding me out. I’ve been using everything up, so I can get to the point where I have one of everything, plus a backup if said item is close to running out.
I’ve always been like it.
I feel such an urge to collect or buy a certain thing, which is followed weeks or months or years later by a feeling of everything being too crowded, and of needing to get rid of it all.
When I was younger and living at home I used to have ruthless clear-outs all the time. Ruthless to the point that my parents would sometimes have to question what I was throwing out or giving away.
I’ve now reached a turning point and realised three things:
It’s a waste of money.
It’s a waste of energy.
It’s a waste of space.
I’m teaching myself to change my spending habits, to avoid the obsessive buying of whatever I’m ‘into’ at the time.
I’ve realised I care more about experiences than things. I’d so much rather see a show or have a weekend away than add three things to my wardrobe.
I’m trying to work on a ‘one in, one out’ policy, not buying things until something else has run out or broken.
Of course there will be slip-ups, but I’m determined to stop crowding myself out with ‘stuff’ I attach little feeling to.
I want to surround myself with things I love, with things which have meaning, and with things that make me feel great.
Wish me luck.