Where have I been?
I could write a lot here, but a lot of the thoughts in my head don't really have much structure yet. So really all I'm going to say is it's ok to struggle. I've spoken on here about my anxiety a number of times, and over the past few years I've been learning to deal with it and control it. But sometimes you can't control everything. Sometimes, your thoughts can take themselves a little too far, and the struggle feels a bit too much. I've spent two weeks doing nothing but attending appointments, reading, writing, and trying to look after myself a bit. I had become so good at putting on that mask of pretending everything was fine that I had neglected the fact there were still issues there I really needed to work through and couldn't keep ignoring. About two weeks ago, the anxiety reared its head with full force, and it was a blow to hear that has now been joined by depression. A blow, but also an explanation, because those I'm close ...